ooo ooo pick me pick me!!

Yeah I am still kicking, somehow. Been out doing some photo shoots with no subject and it is so hard, I dislike taking landscape after landscape and I have snapped enough skylines for another 5 years or so. I can do some city scapes =/ but I always feel rushed when I am standing on the street corner with my camera and having cars whiz by...

Anyway I can sum it all up with a simple phrase: I miss photographing people. Other than that I have been really busy. I probably will be for a while. I need to find a way to get all of my school work done for the past two semesters by Decemberish. My mother would call it buckling down and plowing through it. I call that akin to suicide x_x

Hope all is well with teh deviants and their muses. I'll toss up some more photos in a few mins.

I am working on shaping a new life for myself, something realistic, something that has achievable goals and yet still holds my creativity in high regard.

It turns out I am the black sheep of the family, I didn't want the day to come but I can't help from realizing that they are nothing like me. My brother is following the family business by working for a bank, currently employed in southern Vermont I see him maybe once every four months. I see my mother a little more often, but that is only when I can find some reason to tear her away from her boyfriend.

Her birthday is tomorrow and I can't cook her celebration dessert properly cause she doesn't have a baking pan big enough for her casserole dish to put in a bain-marie. I hope it comes out good cause she wasn't expecting me or my brother to come to her house for her birthday. I was astonished that she thought so poorly of me that I wouldn't consider having a party for her... >_< I don't care how old she is or if she wants to forget about it, she does it for me it is the least I can bloody well do for her.

Just cause I dye my hair, get bad grades, and kill every relationship I have means I get to be the black sheep... I was told that if I get a piercing or tattoo I would be cut off... haha soon... soon and they won't be able to say a thing.

I am finally starting to work harder and faster on my literature and I believe that I will be the first to make my family known. I will not give in I will not give up, I will not end up in a fucking bank

So yeah I am getting some stuff looked over for Anime Boston I will be submitting a music video this year if not more than one. The new 18+ category might receive a good amount of stuff that I want but haven't made due to profanity in the songs or maybe the Anime.

Some of the vids I am planning:

Lain in an up beat song by Orgy (probably work on this one first)
Card Captor Sakura and Gravitation to *bows down* Mindless Self Indulgence.
A nasty vid full of speed and action to Ünloco (I want to bruise them with my beat)
I have to do another Rammstein video so I dunno what I will do for that one but probably will have something awesome.


Hmmm now I just have to find time to do homework and all will be well ^_^

WoW it has been a long time since I did any photography. After loosing my muse I don't know if I can get back on the track but I hope to find her again. Anyway with all the school work I have been doing I think I need to take a weekend and do a photo shoot. Need to find someone to do it with though, not that many photogenic people that I happen to be in contact with anymore...

And life must go on. At the least I have a writing muse for music is a writer's best friend.

If I happen to get out with my camera I'll see if I can update my library with some tasty new material.

Entering into the final weeks of my summer job I feel like it has been quite profitable and I have had a good time. I spend most of my week working and on weekends I am ussually hanging out with my NH friends. Thanks Perki for introducing me to them. other than a bit of drama that seems to be sorting it self out things are going well. I am thinking of starting up World of Warcraft again atleast when school starts up again that way I can keep in touch with Paj and E in case my schedual keeps me from hanging out on the weekends. Anyway hope everyone is having a good summer ^_^